19th May

Happy birthday James!!!

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How's it going up there??? or DOWN there??? Wherever you went. HOPEFULLY up?? i think you were good enough for that???

I still have that keychain you gave me. Of Opal. The one with the little bell.

I still watch the show every week, too. I know it's for kids but like. IT'S A GOOD SHOW!!!

Also I watched it with you every week for about 2 years, so it feels weird not to now. Curse you for introducing me to it, James!!!

Speaking of which... it was FUCKED UP what Ruby did to Amber this week...

You'd probably call me dumb for getting so invested.

Honestly, you'd probably call me dumb for even still writing to you at all...

Too bad. You're stuck with me forever!!! Even AFTER death!!!

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Sometimes I wonder what happened.

Like, HOW you actually... fell.

Because there is NO WAY you ACTUALLY accidentally fell down there. If you did, you're an idiot. (I mean that jokingly.)

If you DIDN'T, then... how??? What happened??? Did Jerry push you down or something?? i wouldn't be surprised. (JOKE!!!)

Or... Was it NOT an accident?

...jeez, I HOPE that wasn't it. That'd make me feel somehow even WORSE.

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...Whatever. I don't think you'd want me to worry about it too much.

I mean, it's already done, so... what can you do?

Anyways. Messed with Jerry again today. As usual. It was pretty funny... he got REALLY pissed...

ANYTHING to keep him off Will's back, honestly. I think if I wasn't here, they would end up like. KILLING eachother.

You were always better at fending him off than me. But, I'd say I'm doing a pretty good job.

Messing with Jerry is pretty fun, but honestly?

I kinda miss our old bit??? like the pretending to be dating thing??? is that weird to say???

Like. I don't mean it in THAT way. I'm still straight, as far as I know...

But like. The way people would react was pretty funny.

EXPECIALLY JERRY. the way he got all confused when we first started it...

And ALSO, it just made an excuse for us to hang out way more!!! And for us to... uh...

...Nevermind. Doesn't matter. ANYWAYS. Point is.

I miss you dude.

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Happy birthday.

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- Alex